~Give you back~

Authorís notes: Song is ďGive you Back.Ē By Vertical Horizon.

This is just a little something I wrote, so donít expect a masterpiece.

They had finally recognized me. Jumping to the obvious and true conclusion, most left me alone. Former baddies are even more skittish, knowing more of the story.

I guess they just donít know what to say to me.

ďHello Colona Sun God!!Ē Eve yelled, hugging my leg.

ďHi kid.Ē

ďYou look different, Colona sun god...why are you crying?Ē

Her parents took her by the arm and dragged her away, shooting me apologetic looks. Heh. I guess they got it too.

I need to know if you were real

'Cause I've been known to get it wrong

When the memory comes

I'll say I'm always in the dark

You got me now

When I was young...I joined Moo. And for some unknown reason...I never saved his life in battle, I never helped him achieve a position of power, I hadnít done anything for him. Big Blue...he just wanted to be with me. My one true friend. Moo assigned him to serve as my second in command.

More to keep a check on me than because we worked well together. You can hold on to someone so much better if you have something to take away. And Moo did.

Heh. It was unexpected. It was the family Iíd wished for...I guess Moo gave me what I wanted. Was it real or some manipulation? He could make people feel so many other things. No. It had to have been real...Big Blue...

I want to give you back

I want to give you back

Somewhere out of here

I want to give you

I want to give you

I want to give you back

I could have told you so many things- I didnít.

I shouldnít have let you come with me- I did.

It was only a matter of time. We werenít anything special...Moo was...

I want to hear you tell me its okay. You gave yourself entirely. I couldnít imagine life without you...now I have too. You forgave me for all I did to you, right? You never resented having to look after me, did you?

I canít remember when we met, the first time we laid eyes on each other. Heh, donít you think thatís pathetic?

You saved my life so many times, took care of me when I was sick, protected me from danger, and I canít even remember the day we met.

I didnít even know your birthday...

I can't remember how it went

You looked like everything I wanted

And as you came along

Slowly everything began to change

I got you now

The guilt doesnít always help, so I get angry. How much could someone give up for someone else? This isnít fair! Couldnít you have goddamned waited for the Phoenix? No. You had to go out of your way to prove your devotion to me. It was suicide...the noblest person I knew wasnít deemed worthy of life.

What should I feel knowing that my only friend committed suicide for me. And heís not coming back.

That's enough

Just talking about it

I don't mind

I don't mind no I

Laugh enough

Just dreaming about it

I have the same dream over and over. In it, weíre together like we used to be. And you say what you meant to tell me so many times.

I saw the look in your eyes when we had to separate on our journey.

I heard the distress in your voice when I was hurt.

I knew. You didnít die with me not knowing. Iím so sorry that I never said anything...or maybe Iím fooling myself. Because I wanted it to be like that, deep inside...

I need to know if you were real

I'd hate to think that I'd been fooled again

And as the vision fades

I'll say I was blinded by your eyes

I felt them burn

I just wish I could give you back all the things you gave me. I want to really know if I had someone who loved me...

I wish I could give you back. I donít want to wear your corpse for the rest of my life.

There are no more grand gestures to make. No more battles for revenge, at least so far. Itís empty. Where do I go now...I donít want to try and live a normal life without you...

Iím sorry.

A gift of life...can I ever hope to give it back?

I want to give you back

I want to give you back

Somewhere out of here

I want to give you

I want to give you

I want to give you back